19th november

i really really want to stay strong.

im back with updates.

im slow and behind time.

because i was super busy launching my blogshop.

preparing for everything.

anyway.. heres an update on what we did on harald's bday.

19th november 2009

preparing to go out to meet my polymates.

CCB ask me 4 get ready.

we ended up meeting at 8. lucky i smart take my own sweet time to get ready.

woke up at 2 and started "preparing" till 8 + den i left house.

anyway, i was the last to arrive =x!!!

now you know why im always the last?

harald say my lash 1cm long. LOL im sure its longer than tt!!

tts fake lash..it must be at least 1.5? i duno..

arrived at waruku.

mine..

after our meals..

this was taken after double o.

after the guys got damn high.

im like a dajie to them cause im older..

so i think they didnt bother to take care of me..

instead when they got drunk..

im like the one going.. EH HOLD HIM PLS..

EH TAKE CARE OF HIM PLS.. and even collecting bags for them.

telling them double o is so much better and worth it..

but i think after tt night, all of them will start to abandon me again..:(

dont u think tt e bowl looks like some kind of potty?

alicias?

qians?

salad..

e small birthday cake we got for him.

birthday boy.

the cake looks cute? but what happens next is EVIL!

maomao/

ivan bay big nose.

desmond. long frindge!

qian and em.

cakee.......

bud bud shikang and nico.

c191.

anyway, i think got some new additions to the class cause change..

c191 is the past.

my past. and what life used to be like for me.

sometimes i think back of poly life.. and i miss it.

not tt i miss the work.. i just miss how i can laugh with them in the past.

but that was the past.

sometimes all it takes is one wrong action.

den everything will be different.

just like.. how i betrayed d.. everything changed from den on.

which led me to quit school..

i would not exactly explain the details.

but one thing leads to another..

if i had not betrayed d. we wouldnt brk up.

which means.. my work would not have slacken down.

i may still be in poly and would not have met j.

den again, i wouldnt have found my best friend.

right now, im considering the next action tts to be taken.

the next action tt would probably change my entire life..again.. like how it always does.

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i did a frame for gonggong.. hope he likes it!

we went to seal his ash at his resting place a few days back.

it was emotional for all of us again.

i hugged him for the very last time.

i hope you are doing fine up there.

i hate guys who make girls cry!

i admire strong girls! THUMBS UP +1

i mean really strong. not only on the outside..

one word: ZAIIII.

xoxo,

mantha.