B.

baby is in camp.

and ive been very much stucked at home for the past 4 days.

when im home , i dont smoke.

watched gossip girls, wei si li, i shouldnt be alive..

and i forgot what other shows.

its the only thing i can do to pass time..

while lying on the bed..

other than reading a book/ playing my online rpg.

hopefully i will get well by the weekends.

cause i SERIOUSLY need to go out of the house

i miss shopping !!

when was the last time i stepped into a mall? =\

and really shop..........

but hang zhng bo ho. ( times are bad)

so no money. no happy.

hahhaha.

i miss B!.

i miss all the sweet stuffs we did together.

there was this time..

we danced in the carpark.

slowdance la!!!

and its an open carpark =x

but.. it was really sweet.

and den we headed back home and slack under void deck..

talk cock till morning..

once, we slack under void deck.. playing those games..

u know.. 5 10, hai dai, qing wa qing wa.. ya.. lame.

and of cause sissors paper stone.. wah how to spell sissors?=x

another time, we went changi and talk.

yes talk.. till sunrise.

B.. do u rmb? =\

there was this once i got HORRIBLY drunk

and vomitted everywhere.

he took care of me.. and even kissed my mouth

which was full of vomit...

and i rmbed that it was raining.

and he told me.. i kept singing..

rain rain go away .. in the rain . -.-"

when i finally woke up.. i realised

he was drenched.. and slept on the floor with his wet clothes

while i occupied the entire bed..with dry ones.

and many others..

it was him who treated me like a gf.. but i treated him..

like a normal friend.

and sometimes even placing my poly friends above him..

i would rather go out with them back then.. den him..

but that was for a reason only he would understand.. right?

okay.. im so gonna get killed..

actually when i think back..

he really did alot of things to me and for me.

but i was probably blind.. and couldnt see.

even when i gave him the/ignore mode.. he still did everything for me..

and me.. im like the most sensitive bitch on earth..

but we havent gotten into a big quarrel yet.

cause we tend to talk things out..

we are still in what they call honeymoon period..

but i really miss those times..we went out..

recently no money so sort of locked ourselves at home.

playing game.. once in awhile go out eat walk walk abit.

den come home.

alot of times we say going out but that nv happens

cause either of us are too tired..

and we are too broke to go anywhere.

which i think explains why i have no photos recently.

i think we are going out this weekend..

hopefully!

lastly.

jeremy lim..u will always be in here. (draws a heart pointing.. samantha koh's)

lol.

xoxo,

mantha.