cherish..

i skipped school today.

daddyy.. why do u enjoy doing this?

08 has been a yr where i ve seen many pple gone.
manman who drown in sentosa.
the ns guy who passed away leaving his 4 yr rs and gf behind,
and jerlyn who passed away in a car accident..

despite all these, i feel like cherish is just a word being said.
but not being done by many.

think.. pple always say cherish/treasure.
but why do quarrels arise everyday..
when pple say cherish/ treasure.
they dont really do it all the time..
its only done when the thing is gone.
den remorse and regrets comes in.

just like me, sometimes i do say i will cherish pple around me.
but i find myself quarreling and being angry with them.
not showing enough love.
even though i know it shouldnt be that way.. i still do it..

and im fcuking pissed when i saw the stupid news.
suicide bombings. wtf.
dont this people have a heart at all?
what if somebody they knew were the ones in the bombing?
will they feel sad? or have greed taken over them.
suicide bombing is like happening every now and then...
fcuking saddening..

mayb this is just the harsh reality of life and we have to accept it..

i miss dk..
but we are not talking at all..
i know he wants to be alone without me..
i feel like telling him how much i cherish him.
and maybe he will be reading this..
but i duno how ... cause to him..
its all words and no actions...
how nice if me n him can dont quarrel everyday.
there is no need for sweet things to happen..
just being simple the both of us enjoying our day tgt.
maybe im not experiencing it now with him.
and going through our hardest..
but im thankful that he did treat me in that way before..
and hopefully our love is strong enough to pull through once again..

i love u dk..

//edit: im half dead.

loves,
mantha.