things will never be the same again

a dear friend of mine wrote this in his blog.

"And i hope my dear friend can do the same thing too, i guess you will know who you are. I know it happened so sudden to you but we have to accept it right."

i know that he is referring to me.

i read his words and felt the same way too.
"Give me a chance to turn back the clock and i definitely will and i will treasure the moment i swear."

unfortunately,for the both of us.. the clock will nv turn back.
this time i guess we both really are low low low low low.

i know i have been myself for days.
like half dead.

A BIG SORRY TO PEOPLE i have shown ATTITUDE/TALKED RUDELY to.

i miss my hubby so much. =\
n tears just flow out of my eyes whenever i think of it.
even right now at this moment..
i have cried for 3 days continously..
and made everyone else worried..

just hope days will get better when i return back to school.
i hope it will be..

im dead tired..want to sleep with hubs beside me..
i miss everything so much...

its all my fault and things will nv be the same again..

I’ve been practicing all day
Now the words i’ve meant to say are gone
I promissed that i wouldn’t cry
Told myself i have to try and hold onT
he truth, i lied
I hate myself inside
And why
I played the game and paid the price

Inever looked back
I never cried, never tried to wonder why
I’ll be on my own
I never doubt, never shout
Or wonder how
I’ll never be lonely
Until this time, this time
This time I will

I’ve been wide awake on night
There’s no sight of sleep inside my mind
The headlight shadows scares my wall
I convince myself you'll call in time

The truth, i lied
The girl in me has died
And why?I played the game and paid the price
I never looked back
I never cried, never tried to wonder why
I’ll be on my own
I never doubt, never shout
Or wonder how
I’ll never be lonely
Until this time, this time
This time I will

This time I will
Be yours completely
This time i’ll make sure you don’t hate me
This time I know
This time I can
This time I will
I never looked back
I never cried, never tried to wonder why
I’ll be on my own
I never doubt, never shout
Or wonder how
I’ll never be lonely
Until this time, this time
This Time I Will

I never looked back
I never cried, never tried to wonder why
I’ll be on my own
I never doubt, never shout
Or wonder how
I’ll never be lonely
Until this time, this time
This time
This time I Will

I’ve been practicing all day
Now the words i’ve meant to say are gone



loves,
mantha.